Thursday, January 31, 2013

One year

So woah! It's been a year since my past journal....oh jeez! I wonder if people still even read journals anymore? Seems like everyone likes quick posts one sentence statuses on tweeter or tumblr nowadays! Well, I'll still write one regardless x) So, where to even begin? So much has happened in the past year. I feel I'm still growing and realize, I have a long ways to go but I'm still on my two feet going somewhere! :) Some good news is, I teamed up with a wonderful team/company called Threyda! Please go visit them and if you can support!! I'm so happy to be able to be part of such a talented group of visionary artists and they go and support some causes that I'm very much for, including spiritual growth and compassion. Secondly, I did get a Society 6 Shop and DeviantArt Print Shop, where you can find my fan art prints and smaller (not as big as what Threyda offers) sizes of my originals! Anything I make now helps...since well I'm jobless. THE CHICKEN BUSINESS WENT DOWN MAN. IT'S ALL OVER. LOL Well actually they had to change locations and I couldn't work there anymore. I was sad because my boss was a kind man and it was a pleasure to be able to work under him and his family. I can only hope my next employer is like that! That's basically me ALL DAY ERR'DAY. LOL ....the amount of docs I've watched on Netflix hahaha Specially after discovering the American version. omg. It was little Canadian mind was overwhelmed with videos. D': And since I spend more time at home...I spend more time with that damn remote. GOD DAMNIT. Technology is moving to fast for me. I know I'm going to be that old fart yelling at the TV going "BACK IN MY DAY" LOL Also, Luis is my brother's name. Speaking of my brother, here's a list of thing he's done recently. He really needs his own show...the things this kid does. I don't know anymore hahahah Is anyone else aware of the shadow people phenomena? D: Well my brother gladly made me's quiet terrifying. Sleep paralysis sounds horrible and he copes with it every night. He once told me that one of them wore a hat and stood at the edge of his bed. IDK MAN but I would pee my bed if I saw that hahahaha He really wants cowboy boots LOL (that's his girlfriend haha) My brother used almond milk instead of regular milk for Kraft Dinner. So if he can teach you's don't use almond milk for kraft dinner LOL Clearly. This is my nonno aka grandfather....yes, he actually said this. I will one day make a segment of "things my nonno says" because they're usually all golden tid bits like this one hahaha Another interesting person in my mom. LOL That's the most accurate drawing of her of ALL TIME. haha And on the right is an example of notes that she leaves around the house haha .....yes those are cats on the bottom too  =_= lol They kind of do though. My boyfriend and all his gab teeth glory LOL :B ..he's....special........................:heart: hahahaha (his butt looks like two apples in a plastic bag. JUST thought everyone should know that LOL) AAANNNDDD I'm going to put out embarrassing things 8D  that's actually why I'm here. Yes, I actually did this. Ever walk underneath a lamp post and it turns off ?  I always feel like I have no soul when that happens hahaha okay, maybe it's just me. Canadian geese...........Canada's assholes D': They scare me.....unless they're babies then they just look like they have lemon shaped butts and that makes me laugh hahaha This is what I sound like when I describe the quality of my paper at conventions.........I really care about it but I end up sounding like a drug dealer LOLOL ______________________________________________
One last thing I feel I should talk about that is something that affected me so profoundly and still continues to do so to this the death of my Mamie (aka grandmother). The one who raised me until I moved out at the age of 19 yet I still held strong holds and ties to her as I considered her my mother. She taught me so much about the world, including french and the importance of learning, travel and how to be respectful towards other people. I never really got to publicly talk about this since it happened on October 29th because I didn't know what to say or do. That month proved to be the hardest thing I've ever faced in my life. The pain was so great, it was hard to vocalize it without judging myself or being afraid of what others would think or sometimes I even felt bad that my pain was making others sad. But I was taught a valuable lesson on those days during the funeral....and that is seeing how truly empathic and compassion others are capable of being. I was surrounded by loved ones and even though we were all suffering, we were able to stay by each other and offer the warmest care to one and other by simply being there. I was happy to see my family, friends and boyfriend care so deeply for me and everyone around them. This is the strength that we carry and I think if Mamie could see that, she would be happy that we're together since she was always the one who brought the family together.
Anyways, grief is hard...very very hard, but it's a part of life and the show must go on. In the end, I am okay, I can laugh and smile again. There rare moments were I'll get a memory of her and I'll tear up a bit....but I'm finally okay with being able to grieve naturally which includes crying and feeling sad. Those are not negative things because it means you're still human which come with a rainbow of emotions and that in itself is beautiful. I will go now :D Those are things that needed to be said, even if no one reads it, that's okay! :heart: Thank you for being a supporter of my art, it's greatly appreciated! I'm glad you like what I can do and I'll continue to do so:star:

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